I miss you, Mom.

Today’s Daily Prompt is

Hi, Mom!

by michelle w. on May 12, 2013

Today is Mother’s Day in the United States. Wherever in the world you are, write your mother a letter.

 

Dear Mom,

I’m sure you’re doing fine up in Heaven, but let me just take a minute to say, “I Miss You.” You left Earth a little over a year ago, but I miss you as much as, if not more than I did last Mother’s Day.

No, you weren’t the perfect Mom, but who is. Jesus said that no one was perfect, not even him. I know it isn’t a direct quote, but I’m sure you could tell me exactly how it goes. I wish you hadn’t left us with Dad when I was twelve, or I might have been thirteen, but just barely. Being the oldest child of five (at the time) was extremely stressful. I wish you hadn’t moved to Tennessee where we could only see you twice a year. I wish I hadn’t blamed Dad for all those years when it was you who chose to leave. I wish you had come back to stay a lot earlier than you did instead of staying with us six months or a year and then going back to Grandpa’s house. It always made me sad when you went away. I understand parts of your reasoning, but other parts are still just as mysterious as ever.

For a long time, I struggled with not being able to say “Goodbye” or “Thank you” or a lot of other things I wish I had said. I probably said “I love you” or at least wrote it in several letters, but I still wish I had said it a lot more. However, I know you can see what’s in my heart and soul. You can see that I love you and that I forgive you. Does it matter how long it took me to forgive you? I don’t know, but at least I forgave you before God took you away.

Last, but definitely not least, I want to tell you something I discovered just this February. I don’t want to say “Goodbye” anymore. I want to say,

“See you later.”

Your loving (eldest) daughter,

Theresa

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5 thoughts on “I miss you, Mom.

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  3. I’m sorry about losing your Mom. It’s hard, isn’t it? By what I read, you didn’t have your Mom in your life everyday . I’m sorry. I’m sure it does not hurt any less. Mine died six months ago, and it’s been very hard. First the Holidays, since she died right Thanksgiving; then Christmas, no my birthday and Mother’s Day. It does not seem to get easier. Your post is great and I hope many people out there realize that whatever their Mom does or does not do, she is a Mom, a human being, not perfect as you said, but still a Mom, their Mom, our Mom. Blessings to you Theresa.

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  5. I am so sorry for your pain. I understand. I did not have a perfect mother either. She died before any reconciliation could take place. She chose to never meet her grandchildren. I still miss what I had hoped for in a mom. But God is filling those gaps with Himself, and I am finding HE is enough for the failures that life deals. This was precious to read.

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